Sorry I haven't felt like blogging of late, but it's weird. When I first got “the best job in The World” and went to Orientation at the IFR, I figured I had found something that would make it so I was never unhappy again.

Becoming a Fixer is the coolest thing that ever happened to me, but this summer I’ve really been noticing how much fun some of my friends and a lot of other people my age seem to be having. They’re not worried about school and they go to the Rutgers Pool or down the shore and boogie board – and they don’t have a care in The World.

Me, on the other hand – being a Fixer is a 364, 25 x 7 – job and even now that I’m off from school, I still have to be on my toes. I guess the other thing that’s been happening is that a lot of my friends don’t call me a lot anymore. They know that I’m busy with work and “whatever Becker does with his time.” A lot of them think that I’m like into comic books or I became Goth or I have problems at home or something. I guess I do have problems at home. I mean, Con Man and Chudnick and even the Crozier brothers kind of do their own thing and hang out at The Slab and I try to come once and a while but even then it’s awkward because we have such different interests. They talk about girls and Stewart’s Root Beer and I’m thinking about Jennifer and The Flip Side.

No one wants to read depressing blogs, so I should probably be quiet. Maybe I need to make some new friends in The Seems? But they have their own life also. Or hang out with some other Fixers in The World – but they’re all grown ups and are busy with other things. Sometimes I actually wish that this Seems thing never even happened and I could go back to being a regular kid again. I really shouldn’t say that, though – because you know what they say – “Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it.”

If you have any suggestions, I’m all eyes. beckerdrane@gmail.com